Is about to leave…

It’s already 1.52am in the morning, and I’m in the middle of nowhere but my bed. Suddenly I feel empty inside of me but yet I don’t really know how to let the feeling go away. Maybe it’s because of the leaving tomorrow morning. Yeah!! It was definitely it. I really don’t feel like going.

But where to?

I was posted to Kempas Edible Oil (KEO) and scheduled to report for duty this monday morning. Tomorrow I,ll leave for JB, leaving all that I got here at home. Well, I gotta say that it is one of the good move for my future but somehow I am not sure about myself for being ready or not to face all the challenges. Sometimes I’m so eager to fight the spirit, but when “that” time comes, I became weak. And, because of that feeling, although I,ll leave tomorrow morning, I am all 0% packed up, 100% laziness. Feels like taking all the stuffs and dump them into the car’s boot, and yeah!!!thats it, one problem solved. Heh!!, we’ll see what are going to happen tomorrow morning.

Is where I am going....

By time I wrote this entry, I kept on playing “Leaving on a jetplane” of kJewel version. I don’t know but somehow this song suits my mood at this particular moment. Not being overwhelmed of that sad feeling about leaving but it was more about how I try to calm myself and act as if nothing is gonna affect me at the end. Hell yeah syafiq!!!thank you for lying to yourself. Haha, and now the thought are mixed up. happy plus the miserable parts and now I begin to go crazy.

so kiss me, and smile for me,

Tell me that you’ll wait for me,

Hold me like you’ll never let me go…

Coz I’m leavin on a jetplane,

I Don’t know when I,ll be back again,

Owh babe,..I hate to go…

I hope that explains all. And the fact that now I,m feeling far away from my November Rain, that could be one of the reason too. Maybe if you can be more supportive so I can be more happy to go. Give me one reason why should I go and meet you at the first place If this is how you’ve been acting these past few days. I just need you, and your smile. Other than that, spare it for your another life. IF you got one.

Well guys, talk and talk doesn’t make much different ain’t it?..I guess I’ll just give it a go, and leave whatever I feel tonight there and then. Kudos for me (“,)

Regards : Chuck

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